I want to travel, travel like I have never travelled before. Although this will not be the first time, I want to be alone again. I will pack my 40 liters Assault, my Apexus Tadpole Tent, my Merrell Shoes, my beaver slippers, my local swiss knife, my local headlamp, my never-been used hammock, my journal, my books and of course my old books.
This is going to be one-hell of a roadtrip. I am addicted to the feeling of being a stranger, a person who has all the rights to be friends with everybody, no judgement, no pretentions, just the plain self, face to face with what the locals call their way of life.
I want to sit on the sand with a stranger. Tell him all the things that brings me pain and joy. We will watch the sunset and the sunrise telling each other our stories, listening to each to other till we get tired and off we go on our own ways. Exciting, liberating.
I am going to remember each road that I will walk into, the trees that I will pass by, the color of their leaves, the smell of the air, the comfort of silence. I will cherish them as I move past them.
I want to talk to people I do not know and look at the in the eye allowing myself to be vulnerable from their piercing eyes questioning my identity. I shall become one with all those who travel without purpose but to decipher the meaning of being alone, of being no one, of being nothing.
And when I get back to the busy life of the city, I shall crave for the simple lives of the folks 've met. I shall remember waking up in the morning and feeling the blessing of living for another day to see the sunrise, breathe the fresh air and walk on a road that has been as familiar as the back of thir calloused hands. And I will replay on my mind all the stories shared to me by people who had come in touch with life's most painful path. And just like many others, I pretend that my life is better yet in the middle of the night, when the city lights has gone out I shall realize that my story is no different. It is the same worries, the same sadness, the same happiness, the same dreams, it all differs on the degree of intensity.
Because of this, I shall learn. I shall learn from their experiencea and whenever I will be confronted by my own demon, I will remember all those people, fighting the same battle and I shall be strong, I shall stand up , I shall withstand and then win.
{ mood } excited
Written by poetfreak at 07:32 AM. Filed under hanging by a moment.
is there such a thing as forever? when do you give up on pursuing someone who has fallen out of love? how do you hold on to promises said but was never done.. how do you start to build another life after everything has crumbled and all this time you have thought you were building a foundation for a beautiful and stable future? when they say it is over, is it really over? can you still fight for a fight, he said he has already won? is it cowardice to give up and succumb to reality? how can something so beautiful end in such a misery? why do we ask ourselves, where did i go wrong, if we have given it all without asking for anything? why does love sometimes become unrequitted? why cant people meet at some point and agree to love each other with all honesty for the rest of their life? when you have been hurt a lot of times, when rejection is becoming a pattern, when do you cease to adore someone who cant appreciate you back? why does pain in pair with love? why do others sleep with the person they love most and others do not? is it because they are more beautiful and some are less? is it because they are richer? is it because they are better? i need to know why... they are asking me why i am still not in a serious relationship.. i had my share of mistakes, i know.. is that because i am weak or because i am too strong to take on a road unknown?
{ music } people taking in calls
{ book } at the river piedra i sat down and wept
{ show } a blank space
{ mood } devious
Written by poetfreak at 04:39 AM. Filed under hanging by a moment.
Hi ____! =) How are you? Hope you're doing great. By the way I'm Niña, A friend of Cleng's. I believe you know each other and I hope you remember me being one of her constant gym buddy for the last 3 months.=). I just envy her because she can greet you and talk to you. How I wish I could do the same, even to just smile at you like how I greet some new friends that I have met here whenever we pass each other by. All I can do is take a glimpse of you or look at you from afar. I don’t know if you happen to notice me doing such or if you happen to know that I exist.Ü I’m sorry I happen to offend you or make you feel uncomfortable by such actions. You might think I’m weird, naku wag naman sana.. hehehe.. I just like you.Ü Haayy.. How I wish to be one of your friends so I won’t be having a hard time talking to you and won’t have this akward feeling everytime we pass each other by. Oh my, I feel like a teenage girl confessing to her long time crush while doing this. Nakakahiya! Hehehe..ü
I just want you to know how you have brightened someone else’s day and I want to thank you for cheering up mine. I hope you don’t mind. I still hope to see you soon, and hopefully by that time I can manage to greet or even smile at you.
Thanks and Take Care!
Written by nheenia at 05:48 PM.
Umattend kami last Saturday ng wedding ni Tito Ranz at Tere at Manila Cathedral. Sayang di ko inabot na nag-exchange sila ng vows. Un pa naman ang favorite part ko ng isang wedding aside from pictorial of course.. ehehe..
Nagmistulang reunion ng BDMA ang kasal nina Tito Ranz.Complete with the bosses! ehehe.. Sayang wala si Den, Nikki, Mean at ang susunod na ikakasal na sina KG and Jayrick. Nakakamiss ang office! at higit sa lahat namiss ko ang car ni ma'am ensiang na si ZuLeyVa. hahaha.. ang cute rin ni Pia, ang bait bait nya.. ehehe..
Ng dahil sa kasal nina Tito Ranz, nabuhay na naman ang balak kong maging wedding/events coordinator. Sabi ko kay Ate Gail, dapat magkagoal na kami kung kailan kami magstart para makapagprepare sa capital, connections and research. We're with her besfriend na nagbabalak and sana magmaterialize itong mga balak namin by our target time. Mahirap pero go go go! ehehe! Ngayon puro research kami at kung lucky enough na may friend kaming kilala na balak magpakasal, sana mapagpractice-an namin yung wedding nila. Hahaha.. ginawang guinea pig e no! Para at least we can experience it first-hand. I'm crossing my fingers on this.. Dream come true to kapag nagkataon. ehehe
Waaaa... Monday na.. Start na ng last week ko sa Fitness First.. huhuhuhu....
Written by nheenia at 05:44 PM.
At last I'm finished reading all 4 books of Twilight Saga. Haha.. Di ako makapagconcentrate sa pag-aaral dahil dito. Sana nga wala ng distractions dahil kailangan ng magseryoso once and for all. ehehe..
The series is good. Pero I must say not as good as Harry Potter Series. Harry Potter still ranks #1 on my list though honestly Edward Cullen really captured me. Haha! Lahat ata ng hopeless romantic fell inlove with Edward Cullen, as syempre kasama ako dun. I'm happy that natapos ko narin siyang basahin dahil nga nabawasan ang distractions ko pero at the same time nalungkot rin ako. I often get attached with the books that I've read and it's like leaving a part of me behind as I read the last page and closed the book after the long read. Gumagana talaga ang imaginations ko when reading and as if I'm visualizing myself in the scene but just watching them move and talk. Mala-PENSIEVE effect ba.. (read or watch Harry Potter if you wanna know what a pensieve is.) O diba.. ehehe.. Pero in fairness hindi ako umiyak dito. (sa Harry Potter kasi OO.. haha..) The story is good, tama lang. At least I still have something to look forward to.. May movies pa.. Sana hanggang Breaking Dawn meron. But I do hope they'll give justice on the book.
For Twilight addiction sake.. ehehe.. I have joined Twilight Coven Philippines. I just saw their logo sa Twilight Party sa Megamall kanina.Hindi ko na rin nahintay magstart yung event kasi hapon na masyado, I just searched them online. They organized Twilight events etc. I just want join at punuin ang schedule ko ng kung anu-anong extra-curricular activities in the future, siguro after exams. Kaya kung adik ka rin.. Join na! hahaha! Here's the link by the way. http://twilightcovenph.blogspot.com/
Speaking of distractions, malapit na rin magtapos ang isa pa.. Next week will be my last week sa Fitness First. huhuhu.. By next year na ko ule babalik.For short magpapakaburo ako sa bahay for the whole December. Double time na.. Todo na to! ehehehe.. Kaso mamimiss ko rin ang pagpapagod at pagpapahirap sa sarili kong magworkout. hahaha.. Syempre mamimiss ko rin siya...oo siya nga.. my Edward Cullen.. hahaha!
Oh well ganyan talaga ang buhay... Sacrifice lang.. hahaha.. Todo na to! Wish me luck!
Written by nheenia at 03:51 PM. Filed under Addiction, Raves.
